Tonight I feel fundamentally flawed.
Having Friends. Having a Relationship. Success in Work. Going Out. Getting Married. Having Kids. Getting a House.
These are all things that happen to other people. I'm just one of those people who has something wrong with them and other people can see it and they avoid it, they stay away. They give each other sidelong glances when they think I'm not looking. They try to end conversations with me.
And I try so hard to be liked, it's my driving force in life. It motivates nearly every decision.
But I'm so deeply flawed I can't even find a therapist who will talk to me like I'm a normal person. They are stilted with me, condescending, treat me like I'm crazy. Treat me like I'm wasting their time.
I'm wasting their time.
wasting their time